3rd period stare

agh, to write and to be written -
to love and to be loved.

there are all these wrongs in this world we try to reverse.
there are these disbeliefs we try to debunk.

to think and to say,

i am someone.

to be hated.

i am hated.
i am the cunt you talk about in 3rd period spare.
i am the cunt that lives to be despaired.

and it is such a way to be living.
to look at you and to say,

i am awful.

i am hated and i am loved.
i am evil and i am good.

i am innocent and i am fucking dirty.

you think about me and say,
i cannot believe she said i wear this coat.
i cannot believe she said i hear this voice.

i am not talented, i am not important.

i am scum and i am filth.
i am cunt and i am earth.

i am veracious acne and sickness, sickness, sickness.
i am dying on the inside and you don't know it.

i do not have an alterego.

ok, i am lying.

i am someone and i am everything.

i am the death and i am the life.

i am hated, i am someone.

i am the end and the beginning.

i care, i care so much.

i think about you and your life and i hope you will survive.
i want you to be happy i want you to suffice.

sacrifice for me.

tell me i am something.
tell me i am alive tell me i am important.

tell me i am beautiful and tell me i am righteous.
tell me i die tell me i stink tell me i lie.

tell me i'm alright.