explain this to me

i am tired of walking in the dark
directionless darling
in these cities I Don't Care About
i am tired of your grand bazaars and winding markets
i am tired of your Sacre Coeur
frankly, the Arc de Triomphe is not big enough
i'll drink another bottle of Cotes du Rhone
but i still think Paris is a Laugh

i want to read henry miller in bed
i want to Lay in Your Embrace all day
i want to
even if it hurts i want it
i want to i want your
long fingers grasping madly at waist.
i don't care anymore
you can hurt me anymore
Nothing Fucking Matters.

i am tired of being alone
Deciphering Stupid Letters
oh i'm so tired
i don't know where i am anymore
but i'm so tired
of Imagining You

the turkish question

what is joy?

i wanna know myself
i wanna be myself
i wanna be a real HEDONIST
when i grow up
mama, yeah yeah yeah
i wanna fuck it all up
and live for today

the great Fire

(gioia, caro mio, perfezione,
fammi, fammi vedere
assoluto, completo, complessa
mi, me me me, scopa me
scopa me a paradiso, inferno
assolva me 
angelo, angelo mio
gioia della vita,
perfezione!)

the great Fire is burning 
all night.
burn me, burn me to the ground
so i can rise from the ashes.

i need to!
enlighten me Greatness 
absolve me Greatness
fuck me Greatness

hold me until the end of time.

porcelain doll

remember i am just a porcelain doll

i'll smash to pieces on your floor

milky white and out of sight

i'll cry and cry and cry 

all night.