they say

i was too big for you
too powerful for you
but i'm not sure its true
you see the truth is
i'm not sure if anyone will ever love me
as much as you do

a state of semi-sleeping

thick green mossy forest, pine sweet damp air, crystal lakes, snow covered mountain tops, ice, rich brown coin copper tree trunks, ribbed, ridges, rugged, wild blackberry bushes, bears, endless rolling hills, crisp, clean, clear, cool, full-grown hair, vast vapourous fog, mature, ripe, full summer leaves, leaving, swelling, breathing, breathing, dreaming

the fact is

i am sick inside
i will die sometime, its true
the fact is i am angry, i am sad, i am just like you
i would like to be good for you but i won't change my ways
i would like to be good for you but i hate myself too
the fact is i could be better, i could be someone like her
strong, healthy, happy, stable
but you see, i must be pure

i could try to save myself from these afflictions i fall prey
i could smoke less, i could drink less, i could work less, but i'd rather
seize the day
i could talk less, i could think less, i could care less, but i'd rather
make you stay

the fact is i am sick inside
i am dying, yes it's true
the fact is i am angry, i am sad, i am crazy
this i know for sure
this might be hard for you to understand now, but i promise
you'll see it soon
this might be hard for you to grasp, but in time
this will be over too

the fact is
i will smoke myself
to death
just for you

making myself sick

is the trick
to staying thin

upon a time

i was an angel
there was a time
i was in danger
upon a time

i was in danger
i lost my mind
i was in danger
i lost my mind

i drove the horses
into the pines
i wore my brooches
on silver lines

i was an angel
there was a time
i was in danger
i lost my mind

i screamed at patrons
i ripped my jeans
i yelled obscenities
i didn't mean

you said you loved me
you didn't fight
you said you needed me
you went to sleep

i was an angel
there was a time
i was in danger
i lost my mind

i scraped up changes
slept on your couch
i healed your wounds
while mine got deep

i am an angel
i am of time
i am in danger
i'll lose my mind

i am an angel
i am of time
i am in danger
i'll lose my mind