becoming pink

earth shattering,
explosive,
volcanic
opal
soft iridescent
limestone
set on
heavy metals
iron oxide,
copper,
petals:
i am  becoming

pink

curling, unfurling

that flowers could bloom and
 be open:
in barren fields,
 expressing nuance -
curling,
unfurling,
breathing
 in & out.
rose petals
 drifting
on sunburnt hay,
woman sits in her
Throne,
 always, alone.
and lo!
atop a mountain-top
a glimpse of something
 Better.
touching you,
 touching me,
  always
            Together.

man with breasts

i was lucky enough
to meet a man
with breasts once.
but i was too
hungry and
i ate him Alive.

strange feeling

there is a strange feeling
i get in your presence.
as though i could be myself
and everything would be
alright.

give more

i was dead -
now i feel alive.
thank predators
for the chase.
i ran,
i ran out of breath.
i found another
dead-end.
the old feeling
lingers.
maybe i am supposed to
give more.

love is Big

love is Big.
dwarfing, dangerous,
violent.
she is Ugly.
love her,
anyway.

love is a transience

love is a transience.
under earth,
i struggled to come
to light.
i writhed,
underneath.
love is a transient
art.
it is not for the weak -
of heart.
it swallows and does not
apologize.

remembering

how precarious a stack
of books can be.
when they fall,
i feel angry.
but they are
just things.
i am just
a little thing
remembering to
breathe.

vast reservoir

your ego is a vast

reservoir.

an empty dam,

concrete.

ideas to write poetry on and other concepts

that nature is beautiful,
perfection as an impossibility,
a painful ending that torments you for several years,
uprooting a garden,
a death in the family,
mental illness as a gift.
deformity as an expression of innate self-loathing,
that your father does not understand you,
a wound so deep it leaks from the spine.
the whim of a child,
bare and free.
braids as a fashion statement in millennials.
the reflection of narcissism in one's relationships,
the realization that one's qualities are neutral-specific,
the acceptance that your life is a by-product of your unconscious drives.
that character is not a value judgment.
fear of engaging a legacy.
wanderlust,
running away,
pining over past lovers.
the psycho-analysis of the dejected spirit.
loss of life force and vital energy currents.
carnality.
anxiety as a result of feeling unloved,
unhinged.
dreams, fleeting but
important.
hard to pin down,
hard to point a finger,
hard on oneself.
the idea that something is wrong but not knowing how to fix it,
or where it exists.

give me life

i am altered,
shattered, violent.
a blank canvas,
pulling teeth from a cyst.
the future
unknown.
watch the statue grow,
glistening
black and green tourmaline.
protect myself, love,
from the monster
i become.
she, who is lonely,
digs.
watch the ship explode,
wait,
listen.
hear my voice,
shattered,
broken.

i am

no, no, no, no, no, no
no

no more
i am
i was
i am not
anymore

leave me, lightened

betray me, soul, 
i am forsaken.
like lost lives, 
i loved, i fell, 
i resurrected. 
help me, change, 
hear me whisper.
soft lips, softness, 
nervous quiver.
i looked into your eyes
and saw my emptiness.
i want to feel, 
see me, lightly, 
starving. 
i want to let go 
without holding on. 
i hate her,
her, she, walked away from me
before. 
she walked away from everyone 
before me. 
the sadness in your heart 
was my burden. 
my shallow, pool.
the memory i cannot grip. 
help me, change,
empty me.
leave me lightened - 
my being,
before.