i fell in love with a bad bad man ever since i met him i've been sad sad sad.

where did this shiny new perspective come from? i quit smoking and gave up on you and i feel fucking great. neither were worthy-less. both were keeping me sick, selfish animals. i am not to be coveted. your desires will not bind me any longer, but i still lust for your fingertips, my precious, capricious lover. i am releasing some hidden reserve of strength. been stowing it here since childhood you know. i am out of control. this well's been dry for months. no rain, no pain, hallucinogenic thirst. nihilism is just getting comfortable, finally settling in. take your coat off, yes, please stay a while. this works, making it stink less, empty garbage can dreams. that must be citrus and lavender, what a lovely room spray.